Is it just me or we've totally changed to this totally different people? Just me, maybe.
I want to taste the life you're having. I want to know how it feels to be you. Surrounded by people who -always love you. Always be the lucky one. Always be the number one. No one hates you. Everyone cares about you. Perfect life. I'd be so damn happy if I were you.
Okay, fangirl-ing session.
I still can't accept the fact that Elena's not with Stefan anymore. She's totally changed. I ship them so hard, but now..
Haaaaaaa. He loves Elena so bad. But why doesn't Elena fight for him. She's not even trying. If I were her, I'd fight for him, no matter what, I'll stay with him. 04x01, she promised him that she'd be forever with him. She keeps feeding him with sweet promises. It's not Damon's fault. It's Elena's. She's just being such a bitch. She dumped Stefan. At the end of sixth episode, Stefan looked so painful. He didn't deserve this pain. I want them to get back together, but Elena should realize how bad she was when Stefan wasn't around. I wish them to get back together in the very-very-very soon. Well, the spoilers said that they're getting back together in eps 10. Like what? I've to wait 4 weeks again to see them together again. I mean like, I don't wanna see Elena and Damon together, please. And the spoilers said that Caroline tell Stefan how to fight for Elena. Bitch, please. The only one who have to fight is Elena, not Stefan. He didn't do anything wrong. But Elena did. Ugh, I keep hating Elena. Sorry. But yes, I don't like her at this time. She's been more selfish and insensitive. I miss the human Elena. I admit it that Elena's better be vampire than human, but she's such a bitch as a vampire. Arggghhhhhh!! Okay, I'm just too obsessed. I'm done, but still, fuck this scene. :)
Everything got harder and harder day by day. People, school, this world and my self. The fact that he loves her more than he loves me is totally suck. I keep thinking that thing all the time. I should be something and she should be nothing. But the damn fact is the opposite. Time was changing him, or he was changing him self. I shouldn't have to think about all of this, but I am. I keep thinking what the hell is wrong with his damn mind. I want to talk about all of this shits but I just can't. Tell me what I am supposed to do.
And you know what's another damn fact?
This hottie is a newlywed. He's a surely taken man. Torrey DeVitto's husband. Husband. HUSBAND. Daaamn.
Welcome, November. Sooo many problems in October, but one of them is still bothering me until now. I told my self that I don't have to be so childish. I am just too disappointed with this problem. Everyone else might not think that this is a problem, but I think this is a problem. The reason was not about the thing, it was what I am for him. Am I nothing? Just so you know, this is not about my love story. It's about my life that ruined by a bitchy-girl. She should get a life and stop ruining mine. She should look at her self, she does NOT deserve all of this. I'm still wondering what I am for him. He loves me, they said. He cares about me, they said. But the reality shows the opposite. Why did he doing all of this shits. Am I not good enough? I'm not perfect, but I was trying to be perfect, and I still am. Why couldn't he notice that? Last night, I dreamed about me and him. In my dream, I cried and he saw me crying. He took the thing he gave to her. It was totally an amazing dream. If that dream comes true to the reality, I would be so happy. But I know that that dream will always be dream. Because he never cared about me. I know sometimes he cared about me, but not this time. I feel so childish. I hate it when cry was the only way I can do to make my self feel better. Tears are made to make people feel better. I should stop this.
It has been ages since my last post. So, hey! It's a brand new life. With new school, new class, new classmates and new situation. Semua berubah. Some people were becoming the people that I used to know. Some free-times were becoming the time that I used to know too. Banyak banget yang berubah. Menyangkut my last post, yang berubah itu Robsten. They're getting back together. Great, huh? Menurut gue, it was a big big big surprise!! Kinda unbelieveable but yaaa they're together<3
Ohya, terus sebentar lagi Breaking Dawn part 2. I'm sooooooo excited! The movie I've been waiting for is going to be released in Cinemas. OMG!!!! I can't explain how excited I am. But, it's sad. This is the last sequel of Twilight, which means Twilight is going to an end. Baaadddd! Feels like I want to watch Breaking Dawn part 2 but I want Twilight has sequel againnnn! Gak tega rasanya liat film favorit kita udahan. Gue pasti bingung nanti mau nunggu apa. Gue pasti bingung nanti mau nonton apa. This is totally saaaddd! :(:( Anddd I can't wait to see Bella's red eyes, and the famous Renesmee Cullen, the cool Edward Cullen anddd the hot Jacob Black<3 ahahahaha
Sebenernya ada satu lagi yang berubah. I have to admit it. Gak penting, but I'm totally broken. I think it makes no sense if I write here, so I will just let this feeling stay on my head. Only God and me who know it. Last, no matter how hard it was, I have to letting it go. And I have to say yes when my heart keeps saying no.
Hai. Kalian udah baca/liat/tau tentang Kristen Stewart yang selingkuh sama Snow white and the huntsman's director? Mungkin ada yg tau ada yg engga. Gue bukan penggemar fanatik Kristen Stewart atau pun Robert Pattinson, tapi gue cuma suka sama mereka. Sejak Twilight sih jadi suka. Tapi gak fanatik, dan menurut gue mereka itu pasangan perfect, gak ada yang kurang, mungkin ada tapi gue gak tau. Dan saat denger kalo Kristen Stewart itu selingkuh sama Rupert Sanders yang udah punya 1 istri dan 2 anak, gue shock, shock berat. What the hell is wrong with Kristen's mind?
How can you cheated on this hottie? Where's your mindddd? Apa yang salah sama Robert sehingga dia selingkuh sama laki laki yang umurnya 41 tahun? Dalam suatu konfrensi pers sebelum dia tau Kristen selingkuh, Robert bilang gini: "Saya gak ngerti kenapa orang-orang memilih untuk selingkuh. Padahal kalau kamu mencintai orang itu, harusnya kamu bersama orang itu. Saya bukan tipe lelaki yang lebih memilih untuk selingkuh. Kalau saya cinta pada seseorang, saya akan serius dengan dia, dan saya sangat mencintai dia." Don't you see how much he loves Kristen? Gue kasian sama Robert deh bener. Mencintai seseorang yang orang itu cinta dia juga tapi seseorang itu gak bisa menjaga hatinya dia dan malah terbuai sama orang lain. Sekarang setelah semuanya ketauan, Kristen bilang:"I'm deeply sorry for the hurt and embarrassment I've caused to those close to me and everyone this has affected. This momentary indiscretion has jeopardized the most important thing in my life, the person I love and respect the most, Rob. I love him, I love him, I'm so sorry"Dan setelah semuanya ketauan, dia baru bilang kaya gitu. Kenapa dia gak sadar sendiri? Jadi gemesh sama Kristen. Tapi katanya juga foto foto Kristen dan Rupert itu cuma rekayasa, tapi ya gue gak tau. I'm still wishing Rob and Kristen will back to each others. Gue support mereka banget. Robsten is Unbroken! Stay Strong Kristen and Stay Strong Rob!<3<3<3